What today coud've been...

I know this is a little sappy, and you might be thinking, 'Tashina's not over him'. Let me clarify. Today would have been 6 years for Ronniell and I. And yes, I am over him. Today just got me thinking of how crazy my life has been in the 7 months that we've been apart. And how crazy life was when him and I first got together. Vegas baby. At a measly 15 years old. Dang.

He was a wrestler. I was a wrestlerette. I'm sure we both thought we were hot stuff. But you know, thats what boys and girls at the age of 15 think of themselves. Obliviously to the fact that there was a future ahead of us that we never would have imagined at the time. We fell in love. No, I didn't know what love was then. And quite frankly, I'm not sure if I even know what love is now. But him and I, were unseperable during high school. And even more when we were out of high school. Ever high school dance I'd ever gone to was with him.

I'll never forget the day I turned 16. My mom and him were terrible at panning my sweet 16 suprize party. I was afraid of getting in trouble, so when I had picked him up to come hang out with my family, i kinda rushed him so I wouldn't get the "look" from my mom. I showed up with Ronniell at my house 5 minutes too early. With all of my friends arriving, 5 minutes too late. It was hilarious. And so sweet that they were actually trying to suprize me. That day at school, I'll never forget either, when Dayna Penrod (now Arnell) came up to me and said, be sure to let him know that he was infact my first realy boyfriend. And my first kiss. I blushed knowing what she had ment by that, because we were not able to date anyone before we were 16. (Of course the trouble maker I was, 15 and 1/2 was quite old enough in my mind).

It makes me smile and it makes me sad all at the same time thinking of this day. And especially writing it here at work at 3 in the morning. But, I will not be negative. And I will not moap around about this day. I always hear and still hear my peers say, you really do change as a person from when your in high school, to your adult hood and college years. I've come to know this as a fact. People change, and they grow apart. This unfortunately happened for me and Ronniell. 5 1/2 years ago I lost my best friend and the love of my life. (Per, my choice). But it was time.

Don't be sad for me. December 15 just brings back alot of old memories. And I wanted to share with you, because if I didn't, I would be sleeping right now at work due to complete bordem. HAHA. Dang. One stinkin post and I really wanted it to end serious without my sarcasm in it! HA Oh well.